Post by louiscypher on Jan 4, 2018 16:14:04 GMT -5
There was a time when I thought I could try and be normal. Whatever normal could be.
Some time back I tried to turn my back on who I am. I married. I had a child. I was for all intensive purposes, normal as normal could be. Married with children. I would take my daughter to soccer practices on Saturday mornings, and on Sundays my son and I would go fishing. I fought who I am every single day. My wife saw some turmoil in me but I guess like a lot of women, she thought she could exorcise whatever was in me and “fix” me.
But I couldnt be fixed. There was a mud in me that went deep down. That mud turned into oil and I became something that was disgusting. A part of me loved being a husband and father, but a bigger part of me knew if I stayed with them I would infect them with what was inside me. And I didnt want to make them like me, I couldnt bear to see that no matter what I say I am.
So I set them free, and in doing so set myself free. Yes I am a son of a bitch. Ditching my family so that I can do what I wanted. But at the time I didnt see it like that. I saw it as saving them from myself. I have only spoken to my children twice in the last 5 years and I have not seen them. My wife cant stand to see me, in trying to save her, I placed hate in her heart for me. But I think hating me instead of herself was the best thing for her. I did her a favor even if she does not see it.
I dont even know why I am saying all this, I guess its my way of purging myself. Telling something personal about myself, so that people dont think I am a monster, though most times I would welcome such a label.
At Titans I am facing once again Lucas Balkan. Lucas is one of the few I have not beaten in SFT and he has not beaten me. Some say I have his number. Maybe so. But the fact remains I give Lucas Balkan problems, one of the few I am told. So Lucas, what shall we do now?
You always make some great promos, you are such a complicated fellow. I enjoy a challenge, how about you? I am sure when you saw the card you were probably salivating at trying to right a wrong, at least a wrong in your head. But for me I havent give you two thoughts. I have my sights set on different things.
The world title for one. I am to take that title. And I know you have said things about Emerson. It seems its one of the few people in this federation you actually might have some respect for. Well get ready to see him destroyed, get ready to see leveled and I will be crowned the next SFT world champion. Are you ready? I know I am.
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Some time back I tried to turn my back on who I am. I married. I had a child. I was for all intensive purposes, normal as normal could be. Married with children. I would take my daughter to soccer practices on Saturday mornings, and on Sundays my son and I would go fishing. I fought who I am every single day. My wife saw some turmoil in me but I guess like a lot of women, she thought she could exorcise whatever was in me and “fix” me.
But I couldnt be fixed. There was a mud in me that went deep down. That mud turned into oil and I became something that was disgusting. A part of me loved being a husband and father, but a bigger part of me knew if I stayed with them I would infect them with what was inside me. And I didnt want to make them like me, I couldnt bear to see that no matter what I say I am.
So I set them free, and in doing so set myself free. Yes I am a son of a bitch. Ditching my family so that I can do what I wanted. But at the time I didnt see it like that. I saw it as saving them from myself. I have only spoken to my children twice in the last 5 years and I have not seen them. My wife cant stand to see me, in trying to save her, I placed hate in her heart for me. But I think hating me instead of herself was the best thing for her. I did her a favor even if she does not see it.
I dont even know why I am saying all this, I guess its my way of purging myself. Telling something personal about myself, so that people dont think I am a monster, though most times I would welcome such a label.
At Titans I am facing once again Lucas Balkan. Lucas is one of the few I have not beaten in SFT and he has not beaten me. Some say I have his number. Maybe so. But the fact remains I give Lucas Balkan problems, one of the few I am told. So Lucas, what shall we do now?
You always make some great promos, you are such a complicated fellow. I enjoy a challenge, how about you? I am sure when you saw the card you were probably salivating at trying to right a wrong, at least a wrong in your head. But for me I havent give you two thoughts. I have my sights set on different things.
The world title for one. I am to take that title. And I know you have said things about Emerson. It seems its one of the few people in this federation you actually might have some respect for. Well get ready to see him destroyed, get ready to see leveled and I will be crowned the next SFT world champion. Are you ready? I know I am.
Fade to black
