Post by twilight on Jun 23, 2017 14:11:28 GMT -5
I remember a time when the world bled blue. I remember the days when darkness was our sunlight. I have seen the face of god and still I was not blind.
I can see. And I am not ready. This place inside my mind, a place we like to hide. What if we die? I cant see a way out. Trapped like a rat. A place inside my brain, hoping for some pain. And we are so blind. Another place has been found, SFT just like Jeville. And maybe it wasn’t death that I craved but an escape. Deeper and deeper and deeper as I dream to live a life that seems to be
a lost reality such as it is with SFT. As it is with Jeville. God can never find a way to reach my inner demons, and I pray to be freed from these self imposed shackles. How deep must I go? Into the ground where I lay? If I don't find a way to see through the darkness that clouds my mind.
This time I look to see what's between the lines, find an escape from this blackness within me.
And all I can do is get some help from my friends and my foes. Take this pain of mine and pass it on, share it with others, make myself a virus from which there is no cure.
God let me be blind. Let me no longer see myself for what I have become.
And I say this to Saint Jude because you are the emissary of god, it is through you that we understand him. Whether you like it or not, that’s how it is, that is how we see you. So speak to me about God and his plans, tell me that my time in hell was all part of some grand scheme. Go ahead Jude, tell me, I dare you. Make me feel better as a preacher would. Comfort me in my time of need.
Then there is Jackson Kent. What about you Jackson. Who do you pray to late at night when you think god has forsaken you? When you feel lost and forsaken, who do you turn to? Who guides you back to the light? I ask because we are all different, we all trudge through this life on our own. Hoping for the best, and hoping we get it right. But we never do, do we Jackson?
On Chaos I will try to subside these things I feel, I will try not to hurt my friend Jude and even Jackson. I will try to stay in the light and be who I should be.
With that said I will finish this for now.
Fade to light
I can see. And I am not ready. This place inside my mind, a place we like to hide. What if we die? I cant see a way out. Trapped like a rat. A place inside my brain, hoping for some pain. And we are so blind. Another place has been found, SFT just like Jeville. And maybe it wasn’t death that I craved but an escape. Deeper and deeper and deeper as I dream to live a life that seems to be
a lost reality such as it is with SFT. As it is with Jeville. God can never find a way to reach my inner demons, and I pray to be freed from these self imposed shackles. How deep must I go? Into the ground where I lay? If I don't find a way to see through the darkness that clouds my mind.
This time I look to see what's between the lines, find an escape from this blackness within me.
And all I can do is get some help from my friends and my foes. Take this pain of mine and pass it on, share it with others, make myself a virus from which there is no cure.
God let me be blind. Let me no longer see myself for what I have become.
And I say this to Saint Jude because you are the emissary of god, it is through you that we understand him. Whether you like it or not, that’s how it is, that is how we see you. So speak to me about God and his plans, tell me that my time in hell was all part of some grand scheme. Go ahead Jude, tell me, I dare you. Make me feel better as a preacher would. Comfort me in my time of need.
Then there is Jackson Kent. What about you Jackson. Who do you pray to late at night when you think god has forsaken you? When you feel lost and forsaken, who do you turn to? Who guides you back to the light? I ask because we are all different, we all trudge through this life on our own. Hoping for the best, and hoping we get it right. But we never do, do we Jackson?
On Chaos I will try to subside these things I feel, I will try not to hurt my friend Jude and even Jackson. I will try to stay in the light and be who I should be.
With that said I will finish this for now.
Fade to light
