Post by Deleted on Jun 18, 2017 1:39:13 GMT -5
It was a very long time ago when I had made up my mind on what I was going to be. I didn't veir away from what I am. My mind, sadly, It never wondered. Things, they never changed. My feelings were always headed in one direction. This path that I've wondered. It was never what was best for me but I didn't let that fact gain a foothold in my thoughts. I had to have it my way, I knew what was best for me. My breathe, it always wreaked of alcohol. This brain of mine. It always welcomed it in. What a good day it was to touch base with another side or atleast that is how I felt at the time. Then came a time where that seduction of the other side. It molded me to be the piece of shit that I truly am. I'm not perfect and I will never be.. Who this day and age is perfect? No one, plain and simple. We all have the things that make us tick. Mine is and always has been drugs, and alcohol. I have willingly and selfishly accepted what they are and who they make me. This mind of mine, it is as unpredictable as a vicious hit from the dark blue below. I never know what I'm going to do, and I dont know what I will say. I've built a shity legacy if you've ask me.
You see Cypher? You were slow to come with that. You didn't try to break me down? For as cold as you claim to be, you seem pretty soft. You could of tried to derail me with my past but you were ignorant to it much like I am to you. Fact is, our personalities.. Who we are, the seperation; it is beginning to be noticed more and more..
While you are nothing, you feel no empathy.. You don't care right about me? That mind of yours.. It wants to deal pain to me. Your intentions for me, they may be bad; even though your plan for me is sadistic. You may want to be the one that breaks me for good. And while you may want to silence me. It'll take more than you have in you to acomplish this feat.. You simply cant push me out of the way like you hope to Louis.. This time, I'm not someone that you can hope to blink your eyes at only for me to be a mirage. I am here. This illusion that everyone thinks they see.. It isn't going away..
Now, I've tried to give you something to feed off of. It is up to you too take advantage of it. I will lay you a line and give your mind a minor design. Dashes that come and go. Yet it will always be up to you...What I say Cypher, it is for you to run with.
Oh no, the blow is within sight.
I try to give all of my fight
Yet here I am hiding with in sight.
Beware of the reach and exactly what it can teach.
Don't cower, watch them gather..
Bring them in, to their end.
Anyone doubting the outcome of this match, will no longer doubt the reality. The facts, they speak volumes, you simply aren't ready dark guy. While you speak of darkness, even though you want to beleive in your cold and numb nature. I know your not or you havent flashed what you beleive to be your trump card yet.
If you want to be recognized as a cold and random machine. You have to keep going further. Don't stop, quit pulling punches Louis. Your holding back and I know it. Quit being afraid.
Experience, it needs to grace your presence more often. Your mind, it has to be willing to pull no punches. You can't flinch; Louis Cypher. I know that you have alot to learn; don't be ashamed because its obvious and we all go through it.. Rest assured, I'm either going to bring that spirit out of you so your consiouce can be free or it'll be my fists that show you a thing or two about what you really seek. You want to live my life? Do you really want to share my burden? Think about that; Deeply..
Until next time my twisted friend, sleep well and hold on tight..
