Post by Emerson on Aug 7, 2020 14:11:07 GMT -5
My stomach hurts. Its been hurting a lot lately. I should really go to a doctor. But with all that is going on, going to a doctor right now would be a mistake. But mistakes are my middle name now isn't it?
I have been seeing the world through red covered glasses. Now I feel that as if I were to go to a doctor I might get sicker going there. Waiting rooms are no more, now people just have to sit in their cars while they get let in. and my car has no AC, so that is not going to happen.
Summers in Texas are excruciating. We are talking extreme heat. And god forbid your ac or power goes out in your home. You wont be able to spend more than an hour anywhere without AC. And so now I have to forget my stomach and all the strange scary things going on in the world and concentrate on someone else.
Apokalypse. Well sir how are you? Good to finally meet you properly. I must admit that your name, has certain undertones, at least as far as whats going on in the world right now. Some believe that in time this virus will end us all. Its just a matter of time. A new black plague. So I have to wonder if Apok has always used that name? Or did you create it when all this happened? Just a happy coincidence? Or was it a name picked for other reasons? I guess in the end it don't really matter.
Apok we all know you will be facing Lucas Balkan on Titans 91. For the world title. So I know for you this match must be a filler, a warm up if you will. But in a way its an important match, you want to head into the world title match on a winning streak, not a losing streak. It feels like you have been here forever but you haven't, but everything is starting to bear down on you isn't it?
The weight of week in and week out performance gets to be a little bit too much doesn't it? And you start questioning yourself. Start questioning whats it all for? But you already know the answer don't you? We do what we do because this is who we are. If we did anything else we wouldn't be us. We wrestle because we want to be wrestlers. We want those cheers and boos. We have a hunger for it. And it is deep in all that pain and sweat and tears that we find someone stronger than ourselves. We find inner strength that we didn't even know we had. We get up when everyone and everything tells us to stay down. We stand up when it hurts. We spit blood and say to ourselves “well that aint good, I will worry about that later” haha. Funny but true.
We get into those rings because it is when our hearts are racing, our bodies are aching, then at that point is where we truly find our true selves. We rise to those occasions, we finally feel alive, and find our place in this world. And we wish we could keep that feeling going 24/7 but even to feel that if only for a few minutes every other week is enough to keep us going back for me.
I feel alive when I am in the ring. I don't feel forgotten, or scared or angry. I don't feel lost or alone. I am with friends, friends who are trying to beat me down into the ground but friends nonetheless.
So Apok, I will be happy to face you on Titans. And we will both live and love every moment of it.
My stomach still hurt.
Fade to black
I have been seeing the world through red covered glasses. Now I feel that as if I were to go to a doctor I might get sicker going there. Waiting rooms are no more, now people just have to sit in their cars while they get let in. and my car has no AC, so that is not going to happen.
Summers in Texas are excruciating. We are talking extreme heat. And god forbid your ac or power goes out in your home. You wont be able to spend more than an hour anywhere without AC. And so now I have to forget my stomach and all the strange scary things going on in the world and concentrate on someone else.
Apokalypse. Well sir how are you? Good to finally meet you properly. I must admit that your name, has certain undertones, at least as far as whats going on in the world right now. Some believe that in time this virus will end us all. Its just a matter of time. A new black plague. So I have to wonder if Apok has always used that name? Or did you create it when all this happened? Just a happy coincidence? Or was it a name picked for other reasons? I guess in the end it don't really matter.
Apok we all know you will be facing Lucas Balkan on Titans 91. For the world title. So I know for you this match must be a filler, a warm up if you will. But in a way its an important match, you want to head into the world title match on a winning streak, not a losing streak. It feels like you have been here forever but you haven't, but everything is starting to bear down on you isn't it?
The weight of week in and week out performance gets to be a little bit too much doesn't it? And you start questioning yourself. Start questioning whats it all for? But you already know the answer don't you? We do what we do because this is who we are. If we did anything else we wouldn't be us. We wrestle because we want to be wrestlers. We want those cheers and boos. We have a hunger for it. And it is deep in all that pain and sweat and tears that we find someone stronger than ourselves. We find inner strength that we didn't even know we had. We get up when everyone and everything tells us to stay down. We stand up when it hurts. We spit blood and say to ourselves “well that aint good, I will worry about that later” haha. Funny but true.
We get into those rings because it is when our hearts are racing, our bodies are aching, then at that point is where we truly find our true selves. We rise to those occasions, we finally feel alive, and find our place in this world. And we wish we could keep that feeling going 24/7 but even to feel that if only for a few minutes every other week is enough to keep us going back for me.
I feel alive when I am in the ring. I don't feel forgotten, or scared or angry. I don't feel lost or alone. I am with friends, friends who are trying to beat me down into the ground but friends nonetheless.
So Apok, I will be happy to face you on Titans. And we will both live and love every moment of it.
My stomach still hurt.
Fade to black
