Post by Emerson on Jul 9, 2020 21:52:44 GMT -5
Emerson is unpacking in his hotel room. Not that there is much to unpack.
Yesterday I was home eating a can or corn. Now I am far away from home and from my son. I don't like either. But here I am. It seems I am the only one really giving a you know what about anything right now.
The end is almost here. Two more matches and it’ll be over. I cant wait. I really want to rest. It seems most of SFT is resting. Resting from what I do not know. But they are resting.
When I was a little kid I used to play outside for hours, tag, hide and seek, war, everything was a game, till it was not. As I grew up, life got harder. As it usually does, when has life ever gotten simpler as you got older? Never in a million years. You know when I was a kid I dreamed of growing up to be a pilot. I wanted to soar through the clouds. Maybe one day get to be an astronaut.
Yeah I had some dreams didn't I? But like all dreams I woke up. Saw my reality. And so I accepted what my life really was. My life was never gonna be what my dreams were. But that's OK. It is OK. Life is what we make of it. Good or bad. Its in our hands, our choices determine our fate. At least it does for me.
So here I am the ultimate hour. I know Lucas will not let me down. I feel it. I know it. But I still have to worry. Its in my nature as a father to worry about everything. Its just how life is right now.
So I worry about The Accountant. Maybe he learned a thing or two about me in our last match. Maybe he spotted way too many of my weak spots. Maybe he really is that much better than me, and I am just fooling myself thinking I can win the Lethal Lottery and still somehow keep my world title. Maybe SFT is better off with someone else leading the charge? Someone who can make SFT better and not weaker. Maybe its Accountant.
Or who knows maybe its Jay Impact? I know he’s been really quiet lately. Maybe its just the quiet before the storm you know? I really do not know how bad Jay wants to win this tournament or hold the world title? At times he seems pretty high octane then other days he seems like he’s a deflated balloon. But then again so has most of SFT these last few weeks.
So I cant worry about their dreams. I cant worry about any of them. All I can do is do what I have always done. Take care of me and mine.
I drank a Dr. Thunder before I got on the plane, I wonder if others drink that? Its a brand of soda sold at Walmart. 2 liter costs 84 cents at Walmart. Its not the worse soda in the world. Kinda got used to it, I like it now more than Dr. Pepper.
And that's how my life I. Give up something and find something that suits me just as well. I have learned to limit my dreams. And go after what I can obtain. Some people will look down upon me for “giving up” on my dreams. To those I say, you know nothing. You don't know what it means to put your dreams away, to pay rent, put food on the table, make sure your son or daughter has clean clothes for school. To make sure you have a job to pay bills. You don't know till you have no one to rely on but yourself.
Life is tough all over these days. People giving up, people needing food, not having jobs. Not having purpose in their lives. Things are gonna get even harder before they get better. And we do what we need to do and put those dreams aside for surviving the reality of our current situation.
I know Lucas had a harsh upbringing. He knows that life can be dog eat dog, and now sad to say it but the world is gonna be like that. Weak people have no place in this world. And me, I ain't no superman but I sure as hell ain't weak. My partner is not weak. Now the question is are Jay and Accountant weak? WE will find out on Titans.
Fade to black
Yesterday I was home eating a can or corn. Now I am far away from home and from my son. I don't like either. But here I am. It seems I am the only one really giving a you know what about anything right now.
The end is almost here. Two more matches and it’ll be over. I cant wait. I really want to rest. It seems most of SFT is resting. Resting from what I do not know. But they are resting.
When I was a little kid I used to play outside for hours, tag, hide and seek, war, everything was a game, till it was not. As I grew up, life got harder. As it usually does, when has life ever gotten simpler as you got older? Never in a million years. You know when I was a kid I dreamed of growing up to be a pilot. I wanted to soar through the clouds. Maybe one day get to be an astronaut.
Yeah I had some dreams didn't I? But like all dreams I woke up. Saw my reality. And so I accepted what my life really was. My life was never gonna be what my dreams were. But that's OK. It is OK. Life is what we make of it. Good or bad. Its in our hands, our choices determine our fate. At least it does for me.
So here I am the ultimate hour. I know Lucas will not let me down. I feel it. I know it. But I still have to worry. Its in my nature as a father to worry about everything. Its just how life is right now.
So I worry about The Accountant. Maybe he learned a thing or two about me in our last match. Maybe he spotted way too many of my weak spots. Maybe he really is that much better than me, and I am just fooling myself thinking I can win the Lethal Lottery and still somehow keep my world title. Maybe SFT is better off with someone else leading the charge? Someone who can make SFT better and not weaker. Maybe its Accountant.
Or who knows maybe its Jay Impact? I know he’s been really quiet lately. Maybe its just the quiet before the storm you know? I really do not know how bad Jay wants to win this tournament or hold the world title? At times he seems pretty high octane then other days he seems like he’s a deflated balloon. But then again so has most of SFT these last few weeks.
So I cant worry about their dreams. I cant worry about any of them. All I can do is do what I have always done. Take care of me and mine.
I drank a Dr. Thunder before I got on the plane, I wonder if others drink that? Its a brand of soda sold at Walmart. 2 liter costs 84 cents at Walmart. Its not the worse soda in the world. Kinda got used to it, I like it now more than Dr. Pepper.
And that's how my life I. Give up something and find something that suits me just as well. I have learned to limit my dreams. And go after what I can obtain. Some people will look down upon me for “giving up” on my dreams. To those I say, you know nothing. You don't know what it means to put your dreams away, to pay rent, put food on the table, make sure your son or daughter has clean clothes for school. To make sure you have a job to pay bills. You don't know till you have no one to rely on but yourself.
Life is tough all over these days. People giving up, people needing food, not having jobs. Not having purpose in their lives. Things are gonna get even harder before they get better. And we do what we need to do and put those dreams aside for surviving the reality of our current situation.
I know Lucas had a harsh upbringing. He knows that life can be dog eat dog, and now sad to say it but the world is gonna be like that. Weak people have no place in this world. And me, I ain't no superman but I sure as hell ain't weak. My partner is not weak. Now the question is are Jay and Accountant weak? WE will find out on Titans.
Fade to black
