Post by Joey on Mar 25, 2017 9:15:02 GMT -5
It is early in the morning on a Satuday. Once again sleep has eluded me most of the night. It is as if something is nagging at me. As if I have forgotten something important. Like when you drive off somewhere and you dont remember if you turned off the stove, or remember if you left the lights on inside the house. Did you leave the water running, something along those lines. Something keeps telling me I cant rest till I get whatever it is that is bothering me out of the way. And yet I cant figure it out. I will walk from room to room, all but one room. I will check the garage, I will look out the window make sure theres no one out there. I will check the alarm. I will look in the attics and closets. Check under the bed.
All the while I am annoying the heck out of Monkey Face. She's trying to sleep. She will give me a questioning eye as if asking "Do you ever sleep?" And the answer is no, not really. My body will eventually give in for 4-5 hours but at a steep price.
This reminds me of a book I read a while back, it was called Dr. Sleep. I dont remember what it was really about but I remember the title. I decided that tonight will be my night. I am going to take a few sleeping pills and finally truly get some rest. It seems its the only way that can happen. I am trapped, trapped by something in my mind. I can not escape it. I can not run from it. I cannot find it, I cannot understand it or comprehend it. I have lost something, I have lost myself, and I dont know what to do about it? The only thing I can think to do now is lose myself even more. Go deeper into the dark deep woods and hope you find a campfire, a compass, or God.
But God has nothing to do with this. God is the reason why everything is and will be. God is the reason why I do not sleep. God is the reason for who and what I am. God has nothing to do with this.
And for a moment I will speak about Jackson Kent. You must think I am a mess. How could someone who comes from the past, that comes from a so called Golden Age be such a complete and utter mess? Its simple young man, Nothing lasts forever. We grow old, we grow confused, we get clutter in our minds. This is what happens to us as we get older. Bones start to hurt, muscles ache, and minds get less sharp. Simply put I am getting old. There is no stopping it, or changing it, or reversing it. Its why I sleep less, its why I go to sleep late and wake up so early. Its what happens to people who get old. It is what is happening to me. And one day Jackson it will happen to you. Better believe that. Believe in god, believe in fate, believe in true love. But all of it is just opinion, getting old is fact. It will happen, it is happening, deal with it.
And some might think about the final Lethal Weapon movie of the final Rocky movies, how they dealt with old age. But they dont actually go deep into all that happens. Its a long awful process, like a flip book, one day you are young and strong, king of your so called world and the next you are in a doctors office telling him you get up at night to urinate too often and you cant sleep well. You have to start getting up a full hour ahead of schedule because it takes you that long in the bathroom and to shower. You wake up one day and everything hurts. Getting old sucks. That is all I can say. So for you Jackson I say this, enjoy your youth, enjoy your life. Because one day you will look into the mirror and see someone staring back at you that looks vaguely like you used to. And the stranger looking back at you will think the same thing of who it sees.
That is all I have to say.
..Fade...to....Darkness......
All the while I am annoying the heck out of Monkey Face. She's trying to sleep. She will give me a questioning eye as if asking "Do you ever sleep?" And the answer is no, not really. My body will eventually give in for 4-5 hours but at a steep price.
This reminds me of a book I read a while back, it was called Dr. Sleep. I dont remember what it was really about but I remember the title. I decided that tonight will be my night. I am going to take a few sleeping pills and finally truly get some rest. It seems its the only way that can happen. I am trapped, trapped by something in my mind. I can not escape it. I can not run from it. I cannot find it, I cannot understand it or comprehend it. I have lost something, I have lost myself, and I dont know what to do about it? The only thing I can think to do now is lose myself even more. Go deeper into the dark deep woods and hope you find a campfire, a compass, or God.
But God has nothing to do with this. God is the reason why everything is and will be. God is the reason why I do not sleep. God is the reason for who and what I am. God has nothing to do with this.
And for a moment I will speak about Jackson Kent. You must think I am a mess. How could someone who comes from the past, that comes from a so called Golden Age be such a complete and utter mess? Its simple young man, Nothing lasts forever. We grow old, we grow confused, we get clutter in our minds. This is what happens to us as we get older. Bones start to hurt, muscles ache, and minds get less sharp. Simply put I am getting old. There is no stopping it, or changing it, or reversing it. Its why I sleep less, its why I go to sleep late and wake up so early. Its what happens to people who get old. It is what is happening to me. And one day Jackson it will happen to you. Better believe that. Believe in god, believe in fate, believe in true love. But all of it is just opinion, getting old is fact. It will happen, it is happening, deal with it.
And some might think about the final Lethal Weapon movie of the final Rocky movies, how they dealt with old age. But they dont actually go deep into all that happens. Its a long awful process, like a flip book, one day you are young and strong, king of your so called world and the next you are in a doctors office telling him you get up at night to urinate too often and you cant sleep well. You have to start getting up a full hour ahead of schedule because it takes you that long in the bathroom and to shower. You wake up one day and everything hurts. Getting old sucks. That is all I can say. So for you Jackson I say this, enjoy your youth, enjoy your life. Because one day you will look into the mirror and see someone staring back at you that looks vaguely like you used to. And the stranger looking back at you will think the same thing of who it sees.
That is all I have to say.
..Fade...to....Darkness......
