Post by reaper on Apr 11, 2019 9:19:33 GMT -5
Well Jack Jones i'm angry at everyone and everything. Once again weakness prevails...victim of seduction. Seduced by lifes meaningless little things. Angry at waking up. Angry at not being minded. Angry at the wind. Angry at the very breath I consume.
You've heard the saying "making a mountain out of a mold hill." Well, I must confess that could not hold truer in this case. Right on point if you ask me.
An idiotic triviality that would go without notice 364 days of the year. But on this day...day 365...its not only noticed but assigned to be the most important of all that exists in this cruel, cold world.
And why? Hell if I know...Really...NO CLUE!!!
And since we've already committed to that choice...on we go.
The solution is so simple. Already I know the "what to do" to diffuse the conflict. But it involves pride swallowing. And that my friend is where the situation gets sticky.
Yes...timeless,useless pride impedes me from returning to a blissful life. I guess pride is the deadliest of all egotistic behavior. Only the will to be right is stronget I think.
Why is it so damn important? Why does it consume us? Better yet...why are we obsessed with such self-destructive behavior?
It's pointless and we gain NOTHING from it...only sorrow, pain, suffering and...awww...DESPAIR. And I'll usually find myself in my element with all these familiar friends, but not today. Even the norm is not the norm.
And then I think...I open my eyes...realize that its not that I'm angry at everything and everyone...It's just easier to "go with that thought."
Easier than facing the truth. I'm angry at myself...angry with me...me myself and I. No one or nothing else. And thats why the resolve is not reached.
Because the anger for myself is too familiar. And I could not exist without it. It's what drives me. Crazy sometimes...but it drives me.
Where? I dont know. But odds are its nowhere pleasant or good.
And yet...I still march on...with pride at my side-holding my head up and blinded to the possibility that I might be wrong???...
Wrong????Me?
NAH!!!
You've heard the saying "making a mountain out of a mold hill." Well, I must confess that could not hold truer in this case. Right on point if you ask me.
An idiotic triviality that would go without notice 364 days of the year. But on this day...day 365...its not only noticed but assigned to be the most important of all that exists in this cruel, cold world.
And why? Hell if I know...Really...NO CLUE!!!
And since we've already committed to that choice...on we go.
The solution is so simple. Already I know the "what to do" to diffuse the conflict. But it involves pride swallowing. And that my friend is where the situation gets sticky.
Yes...timeless,useless pride impedes me from returning to a blissful life. I guess pride is the deadliest of all egotistic behavior. Only the will to be right is stronget I think.
Why is it so damn important? Why does it consume us? Better yet...why are we obsessed with such self-destructive behavior?
It's pointless and we gain NOTHING from it...only sorrow, pain, suffering and...awww...DESPAIR. And I'll usually find myself in my element with all these familiar friends, but not today. Even the norm is not the norm.
And then I think...I open my eyes...realize that its not that I'm angry at everything and everyone...It's just easier to "go with that thought."
Easier than facing the truth. I'm angry at myself...angry with me...me myself and I. No one or nothing else. And thats why the resolve is not reached.
Because the anger for myself is too familiar. And I could not exist without it. It's what drives me. Crazy sometimes...but it drives me.
Where? I dont know. But odds are its nowhere pleasant or good.
And yet...I still march on...with pride at my side-holding my head up and blinded to the possibility that I might be wrong???...
Wrong????Me?
NAH!!!
