Post by Emerson on Aug 29, 2018 16:10:20 GMT -5
I was born in El Paso, 1980. I think Ronald Reagan was President. And we lived for Saturday morning cartoons. We watched Smurfs, Spiderman and his Amazing Friends and of course Hulk Hogan’s Rock and Wrestling. Its how we first got our love of wrestling.
Anyway being a kid in El Paso was pretty tame, we had a good childhood, till I was 12 then my mom passed away, when I was 18 and my sister 19 our father passed away. So no college, no living at home with parents, my sister and I became roommates, we couldn't afford the mortgage on the house so we started fresh in a small apartment. It was she and I against the world. Life was hard I am not gonna lie. I got a job instantly and so did she, we did the best we could. A few years later she fell in love and got married, so I was left to fend for myself.
And as luck would have it, I got married at age 25. We had a son. But he was diagnosed with Downs Syndrome. And a year after he was born, my wife decided she couldn't handle it anymore and pretty much packed up her bags and moved away, and to this day I haven't heard from her, she never once bothered to see him or send even a postcard on his birthday. I chose the wrong woman, big time. But that's life right?
I am not gonna sit here and cry about the cards I was dealt. I grew up faster than most should have. I didn't get to go to college, or find a nice job and career. But that was alright. Id do it all over again for him. See you get to the point where you leave your dreams behind. You grow up and you live your life for your children. I gave up my dreams so that he could have his. And so every morning we will wake up and eat captain crunch and watch cartoons, I get him ready for school and I drop him off, he has a Spiderman backpack he wont go anywhere without it. And most days I am able to pick him up, lands during my lunch hour or my sister will pick him up.
I have lots of responsibility, none of which I take lightly. I use coupons for food, at times I feel like its not a manly thing to do, but I need to save wherever I can. Every penny counts. I don't even have a cell phone, I use my friends.
And all this I am saying its not to garner pity, its to make you understand that my life is no longer my own. I trust in God and that he has a plan for me. And every night I say my prayers with my son, we pray for peace, we pray for his aunt, we pray for good weather and no more wars. Most go unanswered but its the principal.
And my principals are easy to guess. I love my family. I will do anything for them. I would cut my arms off to make sure my son never has to worry about anything ever again, I do the worry for him. I worry what will happen to him when I pass. And that keeps me up at night. I don't like to see him cry, it hurts me. He has been through so much and will go through even more. And I see the looks people give us, or the lack there of, most don't like to make eye contact with us which hurts at times but I don't care, its me and him against the world. And I am content with my life, with my choices.
So when I hear people complain SFT, all I wish I could yell and scream is please shut the hell up! I have lost my temper at times but in the grand scheme of things, it really doesn't matter. Win or lose, no one will remember. Jaime won the world title and some think he didn't deserve it or earn it. I say more power to him, if he can ride that hurricane and help SFT, then more power to him. Others are angry at Cypher for not defending his title. Uh, that guy has been nothing but professional since his return. And for people to wail on him is stupid as well. He’s earned better than people are giving him now. But Cypher hates himself, so he allows others to hate himself. Oh well that I cant fix.
But my main point is, there is more to life. Be a better person, if not for you than for others, so that your family, children and friends can see you in a good light rather than see you as an awful excuse for a human being.
Last week I lost to Nirvana and now I am stepping into the ring with the world champion. In the end all things work out. So Jaime, I want to wish you the best of luck and I hope you have continued success but just know I will try my best too.
Fade to black
Anyway being a kid in El Paso was pretty tame, we had a good childhood, till I was 12 then my mom passed away, when I was 18 and my sister 19 our father passed away. So no college, no living at home with parents, my sister and I became roommates, we couldn't afford the mortgage on the house so we started fresh in a small apartment. It was she and I against the world. Life was hard I am not gonna lie. I got a job instantly and so did she, we did the best we could. A few years later she fell in love and got married, so I was left to fend for myself.
And as luck would have it, I got married at age 25. We had a son. But he was diagnosed with Downs Syndrome. And a year after he was born, my wife decided she couldn't handle it anymore and pretty much packed up her bags and moved away, and to this day I haven't heard from her, she never once bothered to see him or send even a postcard on his birthday. I chose the wrong woman, big time. But that's life right?
I am not gonna sit here and cry about the cards I was dealt. I grew up faster than most should have. I didn't get to go to college, or find a nice job and career. But that was alright. Id do it all over again for him. See you get to the point where you leave your dreams behind. You grow up and you live your life for your children. I gave up my dreams so that he could have his. And so every morning we will wake up and eat captain crunch and watch cartoons, I get him ready for school and I drop him off, he has a Spiderman backpack he wont go anywhere without it. And most days I am able to pick him up, lands during my lunch hour or my sister will pick him up.
I have lots of responsibility, none of which I take lightly. I use coupons for food, at times I feel like its not a manly thing to do, but I need to save wherever I can. Every penny counts. I don't even have a cell phone, I use my friends.
And all this I am saying its not to garner pity, its to make you understand that my life is no longer my own. I trust in God and that he has a plan for me. And every night I say my prayers with my son, we pray for peace, we pray for his aunt, we pray for good weather and no more wars. Most go unanswered but its the principal.
And my principals are easy to guess. I love my family. I will do anything for them. I would cut my arms off to make sure my son never has to worry about anything ever again, I do the worry for him. I worry what will happen to him when I pass. And that keeps me up at night. I don't like to see him cry, it hurts me. He has been through so much and will go through even more. And I see the looks people give us, or the lack there of, most don't like to make eye contact with us which hurts at times but I don't care, its me and him against the world. And I am content with my life, with my choices.
So when I hear people complain SFT, all I wish I could yell and scream is please shut the hell up! I have lost my temper at times but in the grand scheme of things, it really doesn't matter. Win or lose, no one will remember. Jaime won the world title and some think he didn't deserve it or earn it. I say more power to him, if he can ride that hurricane and help SFT, then more power to him. Others are angry at Cypher for not defending his title. Uh, that guy has been nothing but professional since his return. And for people to wail on him is stupid as well. He’s earned better than people are giving him now. But Cypher hates himself, so he allows others to hate himself. Oh well that I cant fix.
But my main point is, there is more to life. Be a better person, if not for you than for others, so that your family, children and friends can see you in a good light rather than see you as an awful excuse for a human being.
Last week I lost to Nirvana and now I am stepping into the ring with the world champion. In the end all things work out. So Jaime, I want to wish you the best of luck and I hope you have continued success but just know I will try my best too.
Fade to black
