Post by louiscypher on Jun 25, 2018 17:06:19 GMT -5
Louis Cypher, the last man. I am god to a world of shit. Shadow of beast from days gone by. Worm from decaying demons. I am god of nothing. And I rule this world.
I heard what you had to say Jack. I am pleased to know you have been listening to the things I have been saying. Its flattering really. So many these days do not listen to anything anyone has to say but themselves, meaning many are in love with the sound of their own voice.
And so they talk and talk and talk and drone on and one. After a while you lose focus and interest and just tune that person out.
But that isnt the case with you Jack. You get to the point. You talk from the heart. I like that. So many people are just pretending, and pretending gets boring after a while. I want real. I want truth. And there are things in this world that cannot stay hidden for long. Truth is one of them.
But there is one thing you kind of forgot. And a few things you got a little mixed up. First off my choice to leave my family was in both our benefits. They are better off without me. And I no longer have to worry about the burden of them. I wont lie and say I never cared about them. I did. Very much so. But that just wasnt me. I am a man of many faces. But I have always been a solitary man. Waking up to a woman, even a woman I loved, every single day of my life was too much. Everyday I woke and everyday when I went to sleep she was there. Asking me how my day was, asking me what plans we should make for the weekends. My kids were so loud, as loud as any kids I suppose but I felt like a cat on a hot tin roof. I tried. I REALLY tried to be a husband and father. But it wasnt who I am. It wasnt who I was. And I shouldnt have to stay in that life to fit some sort of ill minded situation. If I wasnt happy, in time I would make them unhappy too, and it wasnt fair to them, and definitely not fair to me. I know, I know, I sound like a selfish prick. And I am. But I cannot stay in a marriage that makes me miserable, I cannot be a father to children that half the time I wish they would just leave me alone. And yes I know how that too sounds, like I said I am not making excuses but me leaving was the best thing for them and me. Not all men are cut out to be husbands and fathers.
I am happy that you have found your place in the world. That you are working hard to be a hero to your mom. But have you ever stopped to wonder that maybe, just maybe he would be better off with someone else? Or is that not a possibility? Do you think that somewhere out there in the wrold there is a better life for your family that might be able to do better for him than you?
Consider it will you? Sometimes the best thing you can do for a loved one is take yourself out of their lives equation. And lets see if the math adds up at the end. You never know you might be surprised.
Now onto more pressing matters. You want my world title? Come and get it little man. I am waiting for you. I will wait for anyone who wants to step up and take it from me. But you’re gonna have to work harder than you ever have before. Be better than you have ever been. Can you do that? Can you little man? We shall see wont we?
We shall see.
Fade to black
I heard what you had to say Jack. I am pleased to know you have been listening to the things I have been saying. Its flattering really. So many these days do not listen to anything anyone has to say but themselves, meaning many are in love with the sound of their own voice.
And so they talk and talk and talk and drone on and one. After a while you lose focus and interest and just tune that person out.
But that isnt the case with you Jack. You get to the point. You talk from the heart. I like that. So many people are just pretending, and pretending gets boring after a while. I want real. I want truth. And there are things in this world that cannot stay hidden for long. Truth is one of them.
But there is one thing you kind of forgot. And a few things you got a little mixed up. First off my choice to leave my family was in both our benefits. They are better off without me. And I no longer have to worry about the burden of them. I wont lie and say I never cared about them. I did. Very much so. But that just wasnt me. I am a man of many faces. But I have always been a solitary man. Waking up to a woman, even a woman I loved, every single day of my life was too much. Everyday I woke and everyday when I went to sleep she was there. Asking me how my day was, asking me what plans we should make for the weekends. My kids were so loud, as loud as any kids I suppose but I felt like a cat on a hot tin roof. I tried. I REALLY tried to be a husband and father. But it wasnt who I am. It wasnt who I was. And I shouldnt have to stay in that life to fit some sort of ill minded situation. If I wasnt happy, in time I would make them unhappy too, and it wasnt fair to them, and definitely not fair to me. I know, I know, I sound like a selfish prick. And I am. But I cannot stay in a marriage that makes me miserable, I cannot be a father to children that half the time I wish they would just leave me alone. And yes I know how that too sounds, like I said I am not making excuses but me leaving was the best thing for them and me. Not all men are cut out to be husbands and fathers.
I am happy that you have found your place in the world. That you are working hard to be a hero to your mom. But have you ever stopped to wonder that maybe, just maybe he would be better off with someone else? Or is that not a possibility? Do you think that somewhere out there in the wrold there is a better life for your family that might be able to do better for him than you?
Consider it will you? Sometimes the best thing you can do for a loved one is take yourself out of their lives equation. And lets see if the math adds up at the end. You never know you might be surprised.
Now onto more pressing matters. You want my world title? Come and get it little man. I am waiting for you. I will wait for anyone who wants to step up and take it from me. But you’re gonna have to work harder than you ever have before. Be better than you have ever been. Can you do that? Can you little man? We shall see wont we?
We shall see.
Fade to black
